Thinking

Tonight I was thinking very deeply.. I was thinking about...will we be together? Am I trying too much to catch her attention?? or Am I just a fool for loving her eventhough she doesn't... All these questions running through my mind...I didn't sleep because of these... I'm really confused... I just want to go away and run until my mind and body collapse.. I can't take it anymore..

Later I have second thoughts of going to my province and see her once more... Is it maybe that I know that she's already taken.. I must think a while because it maybe a waste of time for me..and make my heart break.... I don't know if it's love but there's something in her that makes me strong..and at the same time fear of losing her....I lost one person before..will I let it happen again to her??

After all these questions.....I just only know one thing...that she's special to me..and I'll do everything just to see her smile...because her smile is everything to me.... =)